Sasha Darling & The BellJar Blog — Uncategorized

Ok, Ok. I have been totally MIA. So much has been going on it's hard to even begin to download. But its all really good things and I'm terribly madly happy. I have been really focusing all my energy towards big creative changes in my life and all I can say, is whenever I focus myself it's amazing how quickly the things I want come pouring in. So on the horizons tons of exciting new ventures. Been heading to LA a lot lately to take care of business and I have to sing the praises of my LA friends. I have such a rad group of friends there. Every-time I have to leave I swear I'm kicking and screaming. I have been in SF for so long and it will always be home, but I need a change at least for a little while. I want to be bi-city, eventually bi-coastal and hell why not bi-continent? I want my life to be filled with glamour, late night dinners, new people, new experiences. I want to fall in love 100 more times. I want to buy a private jet. I want a house in the south of France. I want to have a love affair with a Greek shipping heir. I want to spend a summer at an art commune. I want to spend a winter in Russia drinking vodka and wearing furs. I want to run through golden fields, holding hands with a cute man all the while giggling and falling into the soft ground kissing. I want to venture through cobblestone alley ways wearing ridiculously high heels after sharing a bottle of Rose. I want my life to be full. As full as it has already been. And as full as it could possibly be.    

When I was in high-school I read the Warhol Diaries which lead me to my Bianca Jagger obsession. I dreamed I lived in New York in 70's and popped pills while wearing Halston with the likes of Liza Minnelli, Baryshnikov and the guys from T-Rex. I wanted late nights filled with sequins, satin and expensive champagne; white limo rides and coffee in the east village after three. When I was 15 my friends mom gave me her silver Halston jacket from the 70's and I got a bottle of Halston perfume for Christmas. I frequented the under age dance club in the city I resided in and tried to re-create the glamour of fallen debutantes and drugged out rockstars from the decades past. In my mind, my days are still filled with these decadent visions...intertwined with my need for peaceful days in the country running through fields in a flowy dress. What can I say...it's a mixed up fabulous world in the mind of Darling.

When I was in elementary, I wanted braces so bad. I saw an ABC afterschool special about a girl getting braces...and after that I would stretch out paperclips and put them across my front teeth. My favorite babysitter had a retainer. I thought she was so cool. Unfortunatly I had perfectly straight teeth! Poor me. Ashley Smith must not have seen that same show...and thank god. I adore her gap. what a mega babe. All you young girls? Maybe just let your teeth do what they might...